Archive for May, 2012

From the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and violent men take it by force. – Matthew 11:12

I’ve had a lot of trouble understanding this verse. It’s hard to imagine violence in Gods kingdom and how that gets us anywhere.  Yet it’s slowly starting to make more sense.  The more I hear about others who have broken through into victories in the Spirit, the more I’m convinced that we’ve come to a battlefield.  As I’ve mentioned before, there is a huge need for determination here.  Now it seems more like the determination of a soldier taking ground.  No matter the cost, they will march forward and struggle their way to the objective.

Let’s look back at some truths…

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God. – Matthew 5:8

Who may ascend into the hill of the LORD?
And who may stand in His holy place?
He who has clean hands and a pure heart,

Who has not lifted up his soul to falsehood
And has not sworn deceitfully. – Psalm 27:3-4

First, who is it that may see God?  Those who have purified their hearts.  And who can ascend up into His holy place?  Those who have clean hands, a pure heart, not stood for falsehood, and are truthful.

Basically, those who have purified themselves for the Lord’s usage, who have cleansed themselves from the stain of this world and set their hearts apart unto God.  But for those who have, you can see God, you can stand in His holy place.

Now, I must determine in my heart that this is possible and I’m not going to give up on this until it is done.  There’s a difference between thinking “maybe this can be done” and thinking “I will get there”.  I have no more room for doubt, to let my fears stop me from giving my all.  I must believe that this is possible, and this can happen to me.  I need to be so determined to whether the course for the prize awaits me.

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. – James 1:2-4

As a part of this, I know purity and endurance are huge parts, so I will rejoice in my trials, as the verse says. This is not just  a head thing, but I’m going to decide in my heart that I am glad when a struggle comes my way because each trial is an opportunity to get closer, purify myself and become more complete.  This road leads to seeing God.

There is more to relationship than this, and I won’t give up until then.


If I’m not determined, I will not break through.

I need to put more time in, to be focused and determined.  Too often I get lazy in the things I do.  You can tell when you get lazy.  It’s simple to just continue on with what you’ve set ahead, to sort of coast on where you are.  You will find yourself skipping a little more often, daydreaming more, falling asleep, those sorts of things.  I’m not driven like I should.  I want to take this time as almost a sort of battle.  I want to be excited and so determined to use every minute of my time.  I need to discipline my mind not allow distractions to creep in.

Also, I need to fast.  That’s an easy sign of getting lazy.  If you’re not fasting, you’re probably not serious.  I haven’t fasted in a couple months.  This is my sign that comfort is winning out.

I need this to be my focus again.  God has so much ahead for me, and I’m so willing to settle for less.

It wasn’t even until a couple days ago that I was listening to a message from Andrew Wommack that I realized how how much I’ve been neglecting such an essential part of this journey, the holy spirit. I believe one of the early steps to be taken here is the baptism of the holy spirit.  Neville doesn’t mention it much probably because of his background and his usual audience, but I’m not that.  I grew up Baptist.  We tended to avoid some of these controversial subjects rather than really look for the truth.  It’s easier to focus upon the areas that can’t be argued and keep our congregation unified, than to start discussing topics that make churches split so quickly.  Yet, we can’t overlook so much about the Spirit.

Now when the apostles in Jerusalem heard that Samaria had received the word of God, they sent them Peter and John, who came down and prayed for them that they might receive the Holy Spirit. For He had not yet fallen upon any of them; they had simply been baptized in the name of the Lord Jesus. Then they began laying their hands on them, and they were receiving the Holy Spirit. Now when Simon saw that the Spirit was bestowed through the laying on of the apostles’ hands – Acts 8:14-18

The people in Samaria had received the message, and had been baptized.  I don’t think we can argue that they were saved.  They were baptized in Jesus name just like us, yet they didn’t have the spirit.  Then when Peter and John laid hands upon them, the Spirit came.  There is a separate experience past salvation where the spirit comes into a person in power.  I’m not saying we don’t have the spirit as a seal when we are saved, but there is something more.  There’s an empowering done by the spirit at this point.  What I can’t get out of my head how in all these early examples when believers were baptized in the spirit, everyone could tell.  When it occurred, you could tell by their actions, whether that be tongues or just them praising the Lord.  There was an immediate difference.

We have neglected the spirit too long.  We find other ways to say things that are completely Biblical so we don’t offend and drive away.  Guess what, Jesus offended a lot.  Jesus wasn’t afraid to stand on the truth, and there is no bypassing these truths.  There are a number of scriptures that make it so clear that the baptism of the spirit is a separate experience available to believers.  For a long time it’s been lost to most of the church, but our brothers have gotten it back, even if we don’t want to accept them as us because they just seem a little crazy to us.

I believe tongues are essential as well.  I’ve spent the last 4 days spending much more time praying in tongues.  I’ll let you know the results of this.  I can say that our household has been calmer.  Early on in this, I decided I was tired of feel sorry for myself and the problems I have.  I mean, really, what is it I can complain about.  I’ve discussed this with my wife and I’m making an effort to stay positive, to not focus upon my problems.  Self-pity only drags us down.