So I’ve been praying a new prayer, I’ll add it to a post soon, but part of it is from Ephesians 1:18

That the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of his calling, and what are the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints,

As I was praying this, I noticed something: “That I would know the hope of his calling and the riches of his inheritance.”  As I was thinking about this, I realized how helpful really knowing this would be toward evangelism.  To really know the hope of his calling, and not just the knowledge we get from Bible studies.

If I were to say one of my weak points, it’s evangelism.  If someone were to ask, I would tell.  I live my life in a way people know it’s different; yet, I’m not bold.  I have had trouble trying to figure out why.  I pray about this, because I don’t want to stay that way, but I never really change.  So as I was reading the above, asking God to open my eyes to know this, I started to wonder, maybe I’ve been going about this wrong all along.

You see, we’re good at praying and asking God to help us, then going off to try and fix it ourselves.  So I would pray to be bold, and then I would try to work up the courage.  Perhaps that’s not the right way.  Just perhaps, I should ask the Lord for a spirit of boldness, or for a something like that, and then wait on Him.  Perhaps I shouldn’t expect Him to work through my strength but His.  Then ask, and ask more, and keep asking.  As the verse says, “ask and you will receive”.  Daniel prayed to the Lord and fasted, 21 days later an answer returned.  When have I ever been so focused upon an answer?

So I ask you, have we been wrong all along?  Have we been relying upon ourselves rather than waiting upon the Lord?  Do we pray just enough to get a fuzzy feeling, then go off doing it for ourselves, rather than waiting upon the perfect will of God, upon His word to come to us.  Like I mentioned last time, we’re afraid He won’t answer, so we latch on to whatever we can get, call that God, and try to soothe our conscious that we are in His will.