Archive for January, 2014

Not sure if you’ve heard of Paul Keith Davis.  He’s a guy I’ve listened to a lot.  He doesn’t usually talk about the same stuff I’ve really been listening to with Neville Johnson and Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj, but he gets me fired up still.  I won’t go a lot into him, go look into him if you want.  He has a ministry call WhiteDove Ministries.  They do a monthly meeting they call School of the Spirit, like many other churches/ministries.  Anyway, I’d suggest checking out the latest one.   It’s only like 4 dollars for the mp3.  There’s a woman that gives a quick testimony up front of what happened to her.  I won’t go into much depth, but basically she had her eyes opened into the Spirit, and she’s been seeing both worlds.  There’s no insights on how to get there, but you can hear from her heart and words how it’s changed her.

I just listened as she described it, and my soul and spirit cried out that this is what I’m looking for.  I was actually a little angry even.  Jeaulous really.  I know God knows His timing of things, but man, this is what I want.  Oh, to see the Lord.  Even though it may ruin me, to see Him and to know Him, is more than I can imagine.  That’s my heart, that’s my cry.


Forgot to look for a while but they finally put up the audio from this last years prophetic conference in Lancaster.

Neville Johnson, Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj, and Bobby Conner.

If I didn’t live across the country, I would’ve been there.  Real men of God.  If you haven’t heard about this, you should listen.  A lot of good stuff about where we are in the end times, what’s coming, how to get ready, etc.

We fast and we pray and we don’t hear from God.  I think I have to admit that is part of why I don’t want to do any extended fasts, because I don’t actually expect to hear from Him.  There, I said it.  Haven’t you often felt the same way.  Have you done extended prayer sessions and short fasts and never really get a clear word.  Do you not want to fast sometimes because it seems like a waste of effort when you feel like nothing will come of it.

Today in the car it hit me.  Often we ask His will and never get a response.  Why?  Because we are already out of it.  Because we live in our sins and are unwilling to change.

Again we think we should receive all the things of God even if we aren’t willing to actually follow them.  We want to pick and choose our God.  We want the buffet line of Christianity.  I’ll take some bible study, a little prayer on the side, financial security and hope for my future, but let me leave those trials in that bucket, and giving up my life, it’s just too bitter, I think I’ll pass.

A good example?  Look at Psalm 91.  Famous as a psalm of protection from God.  I’ve even read a book dedicated to this Psalm.  We want to claim the promises of this psalm but look past the first verse.  “He who dwells in the secret place of the most high”.  Can’t say I know for sure what that is, but if I were to guess, it’s either His will or relationship.  Either way, it involves being very close to God.

We must make our hearts right. We must give him control.  If we aren’t listening to Him with what we have what’s the point in Him speaking more to us?  So before you run off to fast looking for God’s will, make sure you first are following the will that has already been revealed.

Is our problem really this simple?

There is a message from Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj about this in his series entitled “A life well pleasing to God”.

I’m more convinced than ever that Holiness is such a huge deal.  We have dirtied our Christianity to make it ok to struggle with sins, to make it ok that we never get past things.  Not realizing that as we disregard the sacrifice of Christ, that we dirty his blood.  He paid a price for us to be free, and we count it less significant that our petty indulgences.  Our salvation is not that of Lordship, but of convenience and safety.

For it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy. – 1 Peter 1:16

God called us to be holy so we could be like Him.  Our relationship is based on what we have in common, and that is Holiness.  That as we set ourselves apart from the world, we become more like Christ.  As we become like Him, He in turn draws near to us.  If we continue in sin, we cannot grow, we cannot hear.  We sentence ourselves to the same place we have always been.

God is available for a personal relationship.  Not a sunday-school-answer relationship, but a true one.  Where we can talk, see each other, get to know each other.  God desires this, but we don’t.  We’ve become so convinced that our pageantry is relationship, that we can’t dig ourselves out.  We think we are rich, but we are poor.  We think we know so much, but we don’t know Him.  He is the bread of life.  He is the giver, the sustainer of life itself, but we’ve convinced ourselves that life is enjoying what we have, not knowing the one who made it.  Don’t you think life should involve Him who created it, not just the drama we had created around Him.

Stop bringing meaningless offerings! Your incense is detestable to me. New Moons, Sabbaths and convocations– I cannot bear your worthless assemblies. Your New Moon feasts and your appointed festivals I hate with all my being. They have become a burden to me; I am weary of bearing them. – Isaiah 1:13-14

We have built our faith upon traditions and interpretations, rather than upon the relationship with the living God himself.  That relationship is bounded somewhere upon holiness.  Be willing to set aside all your sins, all the things that pull you from God and see whether you will grow.  Take a chance, do that which you know to do and continue.

Make every effort then to add to your faith, goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perserverance, godliness; and to godliness, brotherly kindness; and to brotherly kindness, love. – 1 Peter 1:5-7

The key to godliness, is through perserverance.  Perserverance comes from self-control in the knowledge we have gained from our faith.  It’s like a ladder, we build upon it.  And keeping Holy and away from sin keeps us in that right relationship.  I for one have those couple sins that I just keep not getting myself free from.  I’m not talking the accidental stuff, but the things I choose when I’m low.  The things I know is right and then justify later.  No wonder He doesn’t move, I haven’t wanted Him to.

But I do now.

This came to my mind yesterday. Can’t remember what actually led me to this thought, but I was thinking about what would be the most important thing I did today. Was it getting up at 3:30 to help my child so my wife didn’t? Was it caring for a sick child? Was it letting my wife get out for a while? Writing this post?

Or was it the last ten minutes of driving where I just worshipped The Lord. I mean really, what is important? My first duty is always to love Him, so any time with Him is probably the most important thing I did today.

So over this process my “quiet times” have made a big transition. They went from me struggling to make it 45 minutes or so, to me feeling rushed if I do an hour and a half. Much of this is trying to come into His presence and stay there. Waiting of course is a big change.

So I’ve been off for the last two weeks, but this time it wasn’t from sin this time, but from life. Won’t go into details(not important) but basically there was a deal going on with my child where I would wake up every hour or so for about a week straight. That sort of puts a damper on getting up early in any way. So I’m finally getting past this somewhat and was convinced to get up this morning at 4:30 because I want this time. This is what is truly important, and I can’t squeeze it into the day, I need a longer time to spend with The Lord.

So here comes this morning and guess what, my child wakes up at 3:30am and I have to go help. That keeps me up till 4:15. So at this point what do you do, just stay up or go back to bed. I tried to be worldly smart and shift my alarm. I knew I actually had a little more time this morning so I bumped it back an hour then went to sleep. That was probably opportunity #1.

And then guess who wakes up coughing just a little bit later and needed water. Bingo. She has a fever so some sort of virus. And then guess who didn’t make the 5:30 alarm. I think I gave up and turned it off.

Around this 5:30 time my wife went in to help for a little bit and when I laud down I heard my name. Twice. It’s like those times you hear someone say your name from another room and you can’t decide if you really heard then or not. Tell me it seemed like God knocking at my door like Neville talks about. So what did I do, lay there and say I’m listening of course, rather than get up and wait. Sigh.

So what would you have done. You’ve been asleep for 3 hours, would you try for your daily time with The Lord? Then you sort of that your name but think it’s probably imagination after about 3,5 hours of sleep. Do you get up?

Update #1:  Another interrupted night.  Woke up at 2:30-3:00 to go to bathroom.  Wife came back to bed around 4.  Started coughing again at 5, went in and out quick.  Then I suddenly just woke up at 6am and i was awake.  Not sure why.  I’m pretty exhausted but decided that if there’s a chance I take it.  So I can over an hour of time this morning with just me and the Lord.  Nothing big, but glad to get some alone time at this point.  Oh, and she has the flu.  Guess I have about 2-3 more days of this.