Category: Waiting on the Lord


This is actually a response to a question from another post, but figured it’d be good to get out there and say my thoughts here.  The original question was when I’m trying to wait on God, do I clear my mind or focus upon the Word.

How I see it, those are two things.

First there’s meditating upon the Word.  In this instance you probably want to spend time in prayer and worship to get yourself “in the spirit”, basically to where you feel the presence of the Lord, and get focused more upon Him.  Then you take some scripture, and just spend time on it.  What you’ll see I often do is use time when I’m doing something like mowing the yard ( doesn’t take much thought ) or driving to just mull over scriptures.  Repeat it, say it out loud, think through each part of it, etc.  I still think that’s just part of it, and that there’s a much deeper part I haven’t gotten to you.  This is mainly from Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj’s teachings on meditating on the Word.  He says you get in that quiet place, and then just go over and over it.  When you do this, you have different levels of revelation.  The first level is where I typically get to, the Holy Spirit speaking to you, other levels are angels coming to make things clear, the Lord speaking directly to you, Jesus coming, or even going into the Word to experience it.  Neville Johnson also speaks about this some in His teachings.  Both are similar enough in that you get into that quiet place where you are in His presence, and then just focus upon the Word and stay there.  Keep reading, speaking, thinking.  Preferably until something happens.

I don’t do enough of that.

Since I don’t get as much time along and quiet, I tend to try for the other thing, waiting on God.  I’m actually going to sort of take this 3 ways here…

  1. Watching with you eyes, from Praying Medic – From his books ( focused more upon seeing in the Spirit ), he starts with getting in the dark, praising the Lord quietly, and just watching.  Basically try to keep a blank “visual” image and see what shows up.  Keep practicing this to start seeing with your Spiritual eyes.
  2. Visualization.  Neville talks more about visualize.  So in this case, you focus upon the Lord.  Again, very similar to above, first spend time in prayer, praise and worship.  Clear everything else out, find that place of feeling God’s presence, and then just sit and soak.  Picture Jesus in your mind, and stay there.  If need be, speak in tongues quietly or have some music(without words) in the background.  Try to keep your mind clear but focus upon the Lord.  Something I’ll just very quietly praise Jesus or even just say His name to stay focused.
  3. Stillness.  This is Sadhu.  He doesn’t talk about visualizing ( though he doesn’t say anything against that).  Basically he’s big things are desiring the Lord and staying very still and quiet.  This is perhaps the hardest as your mind will just go and go.   I think that’s the case in all of these.  There was one series where he discussed when he first started doing this.  He would come into complete stillness ( no other thoughts, just complete quiet in his mind ) as long as he could.  After a while he got up to going 30 minutes at a time, then suddenly the Lord spoke to him audibly.  If you want to know this, I can probably track down the right one, I know I’ve mentioned it before.

 

In any of the cases, the really big things I’d say are:

  1. Desire – You must come in love for the Lord and yearning for Him.
  2. Expectation – Expect Him to show up, it makes it more real.
  3. Stillness – Try to stop any thought of yours.  It will be hard and takes practice, but that’s what practice is for.  This is something you have to train yourself, but if you can’t be still, you’ll have trouble hearing.

 

In my cases, I think I tend to try to just visualize the Lord and stay quiet ( sort of a combination ).  What I haven’t done is continue to do this day after day and make sure I start building up that endurance to stay there.  Like with so many of these things, I do it for a while, then fall off and I’m not as earnest.

Hope this helps.

Been off for a bit.  Partially it’s because of my other project, and partially because of some life changes that have been going on.  The biggest one that affects me is a possible job change.  I’ve been at my current job for a long time, over a decade.  I’m well established, I’ve done well, worked my way up, and have been taken care of, but it’s hard.  That’s another story for another day, but leads me up to this.  As with any change going on, what’s the thing you do, you pray and ask God what to do.  Add it to your prayer list.  You pray each day about it.  I can see the prayers now

“God should I take this job”

“God, show me the path”

“God, if this is your will, open up the door”

“God, if this isn’t your will, close the door”

“God I trust you, I know you’ll let me know”

And we pray.  And we pray.  Then we post a message on facebook asking for our friends to pray for our “unmentioned request”.  And then we look at all the goods and bads, ask advice of our family and friends, and make the best choice knowing that God has directed us.

..

Except, I can’t do it.

This is our start.  We start with our prayers to God.  We make our list, kneel down, and pray through them each day.  If we’re really Godly, we make our list of prayers for the week, because it’s just too much for one day.  We ask others to pray thinking that the more people that make a request to God, the more likely an answer.  Then we tweak the variables.  Maybe the combination of enough people and fasting will do it.  Maybe I need to give God more time.  If we’re not careful, it because a recipe for getting something from God.

As you become a Christian, you may have to start here.  Look at the Lord’s prayer.  It’s a pretty simple run through. Praise, adoration, repentence, asking, etc.  But then we try to apply that.  I think it’s a good model, but only as a model.  If it becomes an outline, you risk losing the relationship and making a transaction.

So no, I have trouble with this now.  I can’t just sit and run through a list, ask God to do things, and then move on.  My relationship is more precious.  So, let me think, what did I do this last time…

Funny thing is, I didn’t go praying every day during my quiet time.  I didn’t right it down or go broadcasting to others.  Family knew, but I didn’t ask others.  I trusted God.  I brought it to Him a couple times in passing, until it was getting close and I knew I really needed to hear His heart.  So one day I found myself home alone, which doesn’t happen that often and realized, now’s the time.  Now I hope I can convey this somehow, I really don’t have a handle on it myself in my mind, but here goes.  I was alone, and not rushed.  Both are still very important for me.  I need my mind to be quiet.  Then I sit, kneel, whatever.  Basically get into a position that I can be comfortable and not think about it.  Often if it’s “shorter” I’ll kneal.  If I’m waiting on God for a possibly longer time, I try to sit somewhere, just what I do.

Then I go to Him.  I don’t ask God to come, I don’t just start talking, but I lower myself.  I’m not important.  What I actually do is imagine myself first in my garden.  It’s a place I feel like the Lord has taken me before (only in my imagination, but isn’t that as real as anything). I come in, basically I imagine myself walking into the scene, and then I heard over to where I can picture Jesus.  For me it’s normally over in a certain spot, often I’ll imagine myself sitting by Him.  This is the first part that is hard to explain.  I don’t force it.  I open up the picture in my mind and what I’m going for, but then I sort of wait and see.  What it’s really doing inside is I’m opening myself up to the Lord.  I’m setting aside all my physical things, my worries, etc, and coming to just sit before Jesus.  Typically I’ll find some spot where I feel like I’m sitting before, next to, near,  the Lord.  Then I just sit for a minute and love Him.

Then we chat.  No, I’m not giving you a formula, I’m trying to give you a relationship. Sometimes I have to start with forgiveness.  I like it better when I can just come and talk.  In this case I worship him for a minute, and then I ask Him if I can come before the throne.  Remember the verse “come boldly before the throne of grace”.  The answer is always yes(at least the times I get an answer), but some reason reason I ask.  Maybe because I want Jesus to be with me.  I don’t feel like I should come before the throne on my own, something I do.  Then again I tend to have to imagine it.  I can only do that, because I’ve felt once before the Lord took me there in my imagination, so I just remember it the way it was.  Very unclear..  Let’s get that straight.  These are mostly fuzzy pictures with sort of a general direction and something up there.  I am not in a vision, I haven’t been caught up, I just feel like in my Spirit I go there, but using my imagination.  Think what you wish.

Then I bring my requests before God, and I wait.  Sometimes there’s nothing, sometimes there’s a lot.  Often in this sort of setting I’ve had a lot of back and forth with the Lord, jumped topics etc.  In this case, I brought it before Him and waited.  As I did, there were a lot of things that came to mind.  Some of them were things like my “other project” that requires more time.  Me having time to wait on Him.  Being available.  What I realized is I felt the Lord was showing me all the things I would have available if I were to take the new job. It frees me up for the things that He’s been leading me.  It lined up with some prophecy I had.  It lined up with some of the things I’ve felt God was personally leading me.

And so the decision was made.  I didn’t have any actual words this time, just the aligning of vision, and the peace that comes with the spirit speaking to you.

Since then there’s been a lot of doubts come on, a lot of questions, and yet, i haven’t wavered in the end.  The basic vision is clear and there I go.

 

Something that’s been on my mind about myself lately and thought I’d just write it out.  You can hear God.  Seriously.  Not the “I feel like God may be opening this door to take this new job”, but hearing the words of God in your heart.

“My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me” – John 10:27

It’s right there.  The sheep are those that follow Jesus, and the sheep hear His voice.  You can hear God.

But I don’t hear Him.  I thought the same thing for a while.  These last couple years that I’ve been up and down a lot and basically waffling on how much I really hear him.  I like how Bobby Conner said ( I think it was him, might have been Andrew Womack ).  The Holy Spirit sounds like you.  From what I understand of Sadhu, if God or Jesus talk directly to you, you know.  But the Holy Spirit, He just sounds like a thought in your head.  Except it wasn’t from you.  The trick for me was recognizing this voice.

First lets stop and say, you can be “deaf”.  Think hardness of heart.  That comes by ignoring God.  If you feel this way, and you’ll probably have an idea as you felt God has been telling you something and you ignored it in the past, then repent and tell Him you’re ready to listen and obey.  That part is sort of key.

Getting past that though, we mainly don’t hear God because we won’t take the time to listen.  I can tell you this so much in my life.  When you say your 5 minute prayer, say Amen, then get on to your TV show, God can’t do much.  If you’re working too much, doing things with your family and barely sleeping(like I was doing) and not giving any time to God, then you’re in trouble.  Here’s a couple things I’ve found.

  1. You have to be quiet – Car rides, great, spend time just talking to God and letting your mind flow free.  Sadhu is big about Waiting on God and emptying your mind of all thought.  I often find that a quiet focused mind and letting it just wander works better for me.  I suspect the completely quiet mind leads to a clearer voice, I’ll let you know as I get better at that.  Today I dropped by a prayer room nearby.  I just sat, picked out a topic, spoke to the Lord about it, and then just slowly pondered in my head.  That led to the next, then the next.  I didn’t have a list, I didn’t have a timeframe.  Funny thing is, i got an idea for a cover of my book(hadn’t thought about that in a bit), more thoughts on intro, chapter for a different book I’ve thought about writing, validation on some things myself, some intercession.  I felt like I was in His presence.  Nothing big and heavy, just a light calm presence.  Then I looked down at my watch and over 45 minutes had just passed.  It felt like 10-15.  Let me tell you, a couple years ago, praying for 45 minutes would’ve been a chore, now it’s relaxing.  But!!!  It only works when I have the time and can completely separate myself.  Nothing I need to get to quickly, no other concerns on my mind, I have to completely set aside the time for God.  This is harder than you realize, but something you can figure out.
  2. Believe you hear Him – Like I mentioned, I go back and forth sometimes about what I think I hear from God, as I said, it sounds like my own thoughts.  So I’ve had a lot of things for this book I’m writing but I wouldn’t really even tell people, as I’m afraid it’s just me coming up with something silly.  Then I went to that meeting with the prophet nearby.  I thought again today about one fo the comments he made.  “You hear God clearly”.  I think God was trying to reinforce that I do hear Him.  I just need the have faith in what He’s saying and go with it.  Oh sure, I’ll get some wrong, but that’s why you measure the words you get.  I had just put too much on doubt.
  3. Recognize His voice – This is the hardest.  Time is all I can say.  Messages from the spiritual realm will typically be like spontaneous thought.  It can be on the topic you’re thinking about(harder to pick out), or something you didn’t even have in your mind.  Those are the easier ones to know.  Something you hadn’t specifically thought about pops into your head, there’s a good chance that’s from a spirit.  Now measure it.  Is it edifying.  What’s the emotion/feeling you get behind it.  That’s a strange thing to say, but you’ll begin to notice that over time.  A word has a feeling to it.  Does it glorify God or yourself.  Neville says put it through the filters.  “Whatever is pure, whatever is just….”(Phillipians 4:8)
  4. Imagine yourself with Jesus – You can go for God to, but put your imagination there.  Think of him sitting next to you, or in a garden. I actually have a specific “Garden” that I feel God often meets me at.  I can typically picture that and walk in, and find myself in His presence.
  5. Don’t stress about a schedule – Discipline is great, but I got so caught up on certain times for a quiet time, how much to worship, read, intercession, that I started not getting enough sleep, and I think just bothering God with my checklist rather than my heart.  If you have a scheduled quiet time every day, that is awesome, good job.  Make sure you find time to just sit with Him though.

The clearest I’ve been hearing God lately was:

  1. 1.5 hour car ride to a funeral by myself – I could just sit and worship, think about things, and basically just quietly contemplate the Lord.  I wasn’t headed to work, there was no other people around, and I purposed in my heart to just spend the time with God.  So I could turn off the music and just chat.
  2. Hour or so in the prayer room – Quiet music playing, no distractions.  I just sat on a couch and closed my eyes and didn’t worry about any time limit.

I’ve had to ease up on feeling shame.  My schedule has made it very hard to get a certain time of the day to find this sort of time.  First of all, who said I needed to have prayer, intercession, worship, praise, bible reading, meditation, etc all in one day at one time.  Right now I’m just trying to make God my joy, my first, and putting the time in I have.  So the last couple days I dropped out a bunch of things that were a complete waste of time and unfruitful.  I’ve tried to just start with things like family, work, writing, scriptural books, listening to pastors, Bible(of course), etc.  I try not to think on tv shows, movies, facebook, etc.   Why waste the time.  Think of it sort of like a fast.  I’ll let you know how that goes.

Ok, so let’s start with an initial review of the book.

Basically, I thought it was great.  So far I’ve listened to a lot from Sadhu Sundar Selvaray and Neville Johnson about topics like this.  I’m personally not as focused on seeing in the Spirit as just walking with God.  To do so, I need to see Him, I need to hear Him, I need to be in His presence.  So this topic sort of fits into the goal, but not as much that I may see as I may know Him.  That’s one thing I do know through this.  You do not pursue spiritual encounters, or gifts, or events.  You pursue God.  If in your pursuit you look for encounters, great.  If in your pursuit a gift will make you more useful, awesome.  But you pursue God.  “One thing I ask of the Lord, and this is what I seek, that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life.  To gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple”.  ( Psalm somewhere )

So, what I found great about this book was having more practical examples of someone on the journey.  It’s great to hear about the experiences people have, that will motivate and push us on, but if those people cannot convey the path, it’s hard to follow.  Michael broke this down into a bit more practical pieces.  His examples on how he began to see in the Spirit were especially good, as he gave us some “on the way” moments.  He also gave a lot of good basics for the journey, things you need to avoid and watch for.  What I had hoped more for was his own journey.  I really love to hear about someone when they decided this is possible, the path they took, and how it happened.  I know we don’t follow the same path, but it’s like a lot of these guys gloss over the process, probably because it took a while and so many little steps and other things.  Who knows.  Still, it gave me a bit of new material and as always a bit more motivation to get going.

 I’ve pasted in all the sections I marked in the book below, it’s a bit, so read if you want.

 

Seems like everyone says “you are as close to god as you want to be”. Must be right on if pretty much everyone says so variation of it. And it’s true in my life I’m sure. If I wanted more in the past I would’ve tried harder and focused more. Instead I like things as they are.

Breaking through your soul to the spirit

By reading and studying and meditating on the Word of God, the Word breaks those ties between your spirit and soul.

The more you meditate on the Word, the greater the separation becomes and the more your spirit becomes unencumbered with the soul and the flesh. And at this point, actual spiritual veils that cover your eyes begin to be removed.
Practical comments about starting to see in the spirit. Spoke to me as I have some of these things happen, little things you want to dismiss even though you know it was there. This just helped give me confidence that something is happening. It’s a process

They were things that most people would dismiss as a “trick of the light”, or as “your eyes playing tricks on you”. (It is something you need to keep in mind from here forward.) There would be a small flash of light on my left, a movement of some sort on my right and various shifting colors in front of me that I couldn’t quite see clearly.

Always back to practicing the presence



We can focus our attention on natural things and be fully engaged spiritually. We do this by meditating on the Word, or by “Practicing the presence of God.” (Brother Lawrence 1614-1691)

And waiting on God. Again everyone speaks of that.

One of the things I heard early on from everyone who had any degree of spiritual sight, was, you have to “wait on the Lord.” As you wait on the Lord, you position yourself to receive from God.
is your mentor, you will not be spinning your wheels on this journey and wasting your time.

What i liked here was his version. He basically likes to pick nights times to wait, often staying. Up late or getting up in the night, not so much focused on every day.



We cannot and must not pursue the gifts as an end to themselves. No matter how good our reasons might be. Yes, I want to lay hands on the sick and see them healed. Yes I love to see and experience the miraculous things of God. And I love being in the spirit. And I love seeing angels. But all those things have to flow out of our relationship with Him.
It is crucial that you honor the little things, the little strides you make as you go along. You will then be in position to receive greater. As we begin to move into practical application, be very aware of every improvement, everything that your senses pick up helps you develop greater capacity.

Removing veils



What removes the veils? What puts all those holes and cuts and tears in them? Well, there is quite a list that is covered in an upcoming chapter but for starters I will tell you that it’s things like repentance, forgiveness, sanctification and warfare. It really isn’t difficult, it’s just hard. To remove the veils when we’ve spent years, allowing them to cover us through sin, doubt, ignorance and other things, takes a commitment of our time.

Random comment from Bob Jones that just stood out to me

I walked over to Bob and asked him, “How long do you have to wait for prophetic revelation?” And his answer to me was, “Until it comes.”

More focus on repentance. I know holiness is key to relationship, but he had some more practical things to say in this book.



The first thing about repentance is the obvious thing. If you have any sin in your life you have to repent. Turn and go the other way. Get extreme. Repent for yourself, your family, your household, and your ancestors. Leave no stone, as they say.
The Lord loves it when we repent. And He is not sitting off in the sky somewhere disinterested in our lives. He isn’t waiting to punish us when we get it wrong. He gave me a lesson in repentance I will never forget and I never felt one iota of condemnation from Him. He is a good God.

In addition to reading the word and in addition to praying and asking God to sanctify me, I ask the Lord for His holy fire to cleanse and sanctify me.
Personally, I minister deliverance to myself every day.
Prophetess Ana Mendez Ferrell has a book on iniquity that lays it all out as to what it is and how to deal with it. I highly recommend that you read it. It will change your life.
leave the other half undone. To give you an idea of the scope and thoroughness that I’m talking about, when I did this it took me three weeks of constantly asking the Holy Spirit to reveal areas of my life or acts that I needed to repent over. And to be completely honest, I don’t think I’m done yet. When you have done this, you then command all of the garbage, and all of the physical substance formed by iniquity to leave you in Jesus’ name. I prayed and commanded this for my spirit, soul and body. Be prepared to possibly be sick for a couple of days as this stuff leaves you. I personally wasn’t sick but I just kept spitting stuff up for a few days.
Practices to do



Engaging the Kingdom Revelation –Ask the Lord to give you the Spirit of Wisdom and Revelation. Find a quiet time that you won’t be disturbed and spend some time with the Lord. I plan on at least forty-five minutes to an hour and a half. Repentance –I know it’s hard but ask the Lord to bring to mind every sin. Anything you could possibly repent for and do it. Do it just before you go to bed and then ask the Lord to give you further revelation about it as you sleep. Sanctification –Find a quiet place and a quiet time to do this. Sit very, very still in a comfortable chair and close your eyes and ask the Lord to sanctify you. At first ask aloud, but after a few minutes, ask in your mind and picture the lord pouring fire on your head every time you ask. Again, spend at least forty-five minutes doing this. I mentioned earlier that I spent two hours and the result is pure joy. Deliverance –Invest in a book such as “Pigs in the Parlor” by Frank Hammond, or another book that lists groupings of evil spirits. Read through the list and command anything that has invaded your life to leave in Jesus’ name. Even if this sounds distasteful to you, just do it at least once to cover all the bases, so to speak. Iniquity –Get Ana Mendez Ferrell’s book and follow the full instructions laid out for removing iniquity.
We already have it



All we are doing is enforcing a victory that Christ has already won for us. His authority and power are on display in our lives, not our own. As we speak His word, angelic armies are set in motion. The more your eyes open, the more you will see the reality of this. …The joy of the Lord is your strength. (Nehemiah 8: 10)
Do not strive for your spiritual sight. Know that the Lord wants you to see. Know that the Lord will not withhold any good thing from you. And do your warfare from that place of confidence in God that He has already won the victory. Do it with joy!

Focused prayer. I’ve been realizing this is important more lately and it’s always good to get some validation.

When you pray, try to be focused on what you are praying about. In general, that is a good rule. Specific to our journey, as you pray for your eyes to open, pray with your entire being. Pray with your voice, your desire, your soul, your consciousness and with your thoughts.

Praying for others

as we pray for others to get the blessings they need from the Lord, He also blesses us.
Pressing through in prayer is praying until you have a sense that something has been done. Something has been accomplished.

Forgot why I marked this, I think good verses to pray over your family



… As for me and my house we will serve the Lord. (Joshua 24: 15) No weapon formed against us shall prosper…. (Isaiah 54: 17) He has given His angels charge over us… (Psalms 91: 11) Angels listen for God’s word to perform it. And they do. The Bible says Thou shalt also decree a thing and it shall be established unto thee, and light shall shine upon thy ways. (Job 22: 28) There is power in your decree and in your agreement with this word of the Lord. If you decree on the authority of the Word that your eyes will open and see clearly, it will come to pass. The Lord is not a man that He should lie, nor the son of man that He should repent. If He said it, will He not do it? (Numbers 23: 19)

More practice

Engaging the Kingdom Prayer –Pick something that you really need or you really want to pray about. Pray exactly the way I described it to you. See the prayer coming to pass in your mind and imagination. Keep your whole being engaged and of one accord. Do this at first for at least ten minutes and try to add more time as you continue. It becomes easier. Intercession –There is someone in your life who you really have no desire to pray for. Think for a few minutes on where this person may spend eternity. Ask the Lord to give you a burden for this person. Give them one hour of the best blessing and prayer that anyone has ever prayed over them. Afterward, sit very quiet and still and ask the Lord if He wants to tell you anything, and then listen for his voice. Or, if there is someone with a great need, intercede the same way for two hours. Decree, Declare and Prophesy! –Consider any problem or situation you have going on in your life. Decree every day ten times a day what you desire to come to pass. Do this for a week and watch God move. Declare every morning and every night just before sleep that the eyes of your heart are being enlightened. And finally, prophesy over your home. “Home, you are a Bethel and a gateway to Heaven. You are a habitation of angels. You are a place to reveal the Lord’s glory!” As you do these things, be sensitive to the spiritual atmosphere around you and in your home. See how the atmosphere changes. In all these “exercises” be aware of what is going on around you.
Journaling. Interesting how he talked about putting value to what god shows by writing it down. I noticed if I don’t write things down, I will forgot no matter what impression it made on me.

One of the very first things you should do is buy a journal or a notebook of some kind.
Workouts and waiting – good practical stuff if you’re not sure how to wait on God

Being aware is the first step. You know the spiritual reality is right there where you can reach out and touch it. It’s closer than that. Stillness is a key. You can’t sense or feel or see anything if you are preoccupied with anything in the natural. You have to take some time to do your “workout.” Five minutes here and two minutes there will do nicely because it will keep you engaged more so than spending an hour and then forgetting about it.
When you wait on the Lord, you are making yourself available to Him. Whatever you want Lord, is what you are saying. My time is your time.
After everyone goes to bed and I’m pretty sure they are asleep, I go to my prayer chair downstairs. My prayer chair is a big comfortable, overstuffed chair in the living room. Sometimes I will kneel first, just to acknowledge Jesus’ lordship over my life. Sometime I will stay there for a while and sometimes for only a few minutes. Then I sit in my chair and purposely try to get as comfortable as possible. It can be very distracting if you are in an uncomfortable position while you are trying to pray. I repent of any known or unknown sins in my life. I ask the Lord to remove anything that defiles me and anything that offends Him. Sometimes I ask the Lord to send His Seraphim with coals to sanctify me. And then I sit very, very still. I stress this because if you are thinking about all the movements that you are making, scratching your nose, adjusting your glasses or just moving too much, your focus will be divided. You are trying to engage the spirit realm and your focus will be on the natural. You don’t want to divide your focus. So now I’m comfortable and I’m sitting very still with my eyes closed. Sometimes I will picture the Lord Jesus in my mind. This is very much like if I asked you to close your eyes and “see” what your house looks like. Or, sometimes I will think about a scripture or even a previous vision that the Lord has shown me. Now I wait. I wait with the expectation that the Lord will speak to me or manifest Himself to me in some way. I “listen” as if I am on guard and I have to be diligent to hear any strange sounds no matter how faint they may be. In other words I actively listen. 
I just want to take a minute to remind you that as believers we have a right to seek and expect for the Lord to visit with us or appear to us or embrace anything else He wants to do. Whoever has my commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves me, and he who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and manifest myself to him (John 14: 21

Imagination

Use your imagination in every part of your Christian walk. Use it in prayer, and in worship. Use it while waiting on the Lord, or when praying for the sick. Practice using your imagination by putting yourself into biblical scenes or imagine the visions that John or Ezekiel describe as if they are happening to you. What will happen is that you will find yourself being “pulled” into these visionary experiences. The doorway is your imagination.

Another practice session
Engaging the Kingdom Journaling –Get your journal started. Let your first entry be a prayer to the Lord that He Himself would fill that journal with mighty exploits that give Him glory! Exercise your Senses –Pick the hour that will best work for you, morning or night, and spend ten to fifteen minutes looking on the unseen. Also, take a few minutes to also do this as you wait on the Lord. Waiting on God –This one is your key to supernatural adventures in God. Do not neglect this. You will not be disappointed. Do the things I described for you and try to wait on the Lord for forty-five minutes to an hour and a half. If you are able to spend more time with the Lord, maybe on a day when you don’t have to get up early the next day, go a little longer! Imagination –Pick out some scriptures that you really love, and imagine yourself as being there. Imagine the sights, sounds, smells, feelings and emotions. Try to make a promise to yourself that you will do this at least twice a week until it starts to transport into the experience.

I’ve seen this verse a lot, it hasn’t hit home with me like other things by it’s mentioned by a lot of people

God is no respecter of persons, what He does for another He will do for you.
can honestly say that watching and participating with this program has taken our family into the most incredible things we have ever experienced! Again, it’s the power of a testimony!

Be hungry

If you are hungry for God, go wherever you have to. If you are hungry to see, get around the people who already do. I like how Pastor Bill Johnson addresses this subject. “Everyone says you shouldn’t follow after signs and wonders. I say follow them until they start following you!”
He wants us to be hungry. He wants us to contend for His presence. He wants us to draw from Him and drink from His provision.
If you want your home to be a place where you see angels and even strangers feel the presence of God, you have to make it so.

Fasting

Prayer is reaching out after the unseen; fasting is letting go of all that is seen and temporal. Fasting helps express, deepen and confirm the resolution that we are ready to sacrifice anything, even ourselves, to attain what

I mentioned that sometimes I’m led by the Lord before I fast. You cannot live a fasted life that way though. Fast even without being led, even if it’s only a meal, or a day.
There is extreme power in extreme actions when they are born of God.
The power of prayer and fasting together cannot be over emphasized. Giving up the desire of your body to eat and then also giving up the desires of your soul (your agenda) so that you can pray, will overcome any and every obstacle.

Another practice round

Fasting –Make a commitment to fast at least one meal, twice a week. Also, pick a day when you won’t be expected to eat, and fast the day. If that seems daunting at all, then fast from desserts or breads for a day. God will honor that. He is training us. He is our helper. As your experience with fasting deepens, then you can fast a full day, then three days, then seven. If you have medical issues, be smart and don’t make yourself ill. As your eyes are opened to the supernatural, your fasting will be motivated by the incredible experiences the lord gives you. Extreme Prayer –Pick something or someone you are passionate about, and go double the distance you have prayed before. If you’ve prayed an hour, go two, if two, go four. Get up and pray during the watch of the night. The supernatural realm seems to be more accessible during the night watch. If you have a day or can take a day and focus on prayer, try praying in tongues for eight hours. Don’t strain for it. Pray all day but don’t let it be work. Work gets tedious too fast. Keep joy in your prayer front and center. At the end of your prayer, always try to sit in stillness for at least ten minutes to really feel God’s presence and let Him speak to you. • Make sure and keep journal entries for your times of prayer and fasting. It will be a great benefit as you look and see what works for you and what doesn’t.
no longer focus on “not” committing sins. That is one thing the Lord showed me early on. If you focus on not committing the sin, you are still focused on the sin. If I feel tempted in any type of sin, or even if I don’t, my focus turns to Christ. Any thought that would offend the Lord is driven out and I imagine Him standing right there with me as if He can see my thoughts, because He can.
I try to practice the presence of the Lord in an ongoing manner, no matter where I am or what I’m doing.

Time is important

A great benefit of spending a lot of time in God’s presence a, is that His presence also surrounds your atmosphere,
Going back over my journal entries, I’ve discovered that if I spend at least a couple of hours a day in prayer, my eyes are open. If I spend less, it’s kind of hit and miss. If I spend much less, my eyes being opened seem to be completely a sovereign thing.

Ok, so I was skimming over stuff from the past.  Man, I did a lot of posts in 2014, some in 2015, and then not much at all this year.  My bad…  Obviously from skimming, we had the health issues last year that just through off so much.  This year my work has taken it’s toll.  However, the last little bit I’m getting things going again here.  Two reasons:

  1. Aunt’s funeral – Somehow funerals always motivate me.  In this case it was actually the ride there, I was along and had the best alone time with God in a while.  One of the things that popped up was I need to start writing again.  Now, that’s not actually this blog, but my “book” that the Lord had me going on.  I say “book” because the quotes are super important there.  This is something I’m writing, but I don’t know if it’ll even be any good.  I hope so, since most I’m just plugging together the truth’s God has given me.  Anyway, so i’m putting more focus on that, which doesn’t help me to come here and write, but I will.  I find that when I get focused upon the Lord for any amount of time, things just come out.
  2. New book – How to See in the Spirit.  I’m going to get you guys a recap of the book and the good parts, but the short story is this is a guy going on our same journey ( just a number of years back ) and the methods and truths he’s learned upon the way.  He’s building upon a lot of the same guys ( plus more I haven’t listened to ), and as usual has shown more dedication than me ( sigh ).  But, he had a lot of real-world examples and insights that were great to here.  Much of it tells me I’m on a good path, just have to keep going and get more focused ( by more focused, I mean I get caught up in useless stuff too often ).  Anyway, I’m going back through the book and bookmarking things to get you a better write-up and some of the good stuff from that.

Since then, I’ve actually had several nights that I end up (for one reason or the other ) awake in the middle of the night, so I take the time to sit with the Lord and just pray, toungues, or wait.  Those have been some of the better times.  I feel like there’s little glimpses.  I mean, looking back, in one sense I feel like I haven’t come that far in 2 years ( and don’t get discouraged here, 2 years is because of my lack, not God’s.  Had I stayed focused this would’ve been better ).  At the same point, I see very different changes.  What was very uncommon early on to hear little things from the Lord, to feel like I get glimpses of Him or angels nearby at first, is more common now.  There are things I understand now and already take for granted that I didn’t know then.  So much of this process is getting those truths deep into you so you have the basis to build on.

So, all this to say, I’m back, and I hope to not take any more little sabbaticals on you guys.  God is good.

Oh, and I went off adding in a references page up top with some of the materials I’ve found the most helpful, and updating some links in my Journey Steps

In the first year of Darius the son of Ahasuerus, of Median descent, who was made king over the kingdom of the Chaldeans- in the first year of his reign, I, Daniel, observed in the books the number of the years which was revealed as the word of the Lord to Jeremiah the prophet for the completion of the desolations of Jerusalem, namely, seventy years. So I gave my attention to the Lord God to seek Him by prayer and supplications, with fasting, sackcloth and ashes.Daniel 9:1-3

Mainly focus upon that last verse.  There’s a couple things I want to note before I get to my main point.

“I gave attention”

Daniel set aside time.  This wasn’t just a 5 minute prayer like we do.  I believe this is saying he put all else aside and began to seek God.

“by prayer and supplications”

Ever notice these two together.  Let’s look at supplication.  The root word, supplicate means to pray humbly; make humble and earnest entreaty or petition.”  So basically, to supplicate means to make a petition to God, to ask Him for something.  Wait a second.  Isn’t that what we call prayer.  Our prayers to God are to bring all of our requests to Him, ask His guidance, help, etc.  So those are supplications.  Wait, what is prayer then.  Prayer is the act of coming before God.  It can encompass supplications, but it’s much more.  Mainly, it’s not all about us talking.

“with fasting, sackcloth and ashes”

Now he’s serious.  I think in our western church we’ve forgotten mostly about fasting.  I’ve posted about that several times.  Our church is doing a church-wide fast right now, which I think is pretty cool.  I disagree with some things, but I’ll never disagree with humbly coming before God.  But Daniel did more.  He came in sackcloth and ashes.  I really have never studied much about sackcloth and ashes, and struggled to think of a current day correlation of this.  Basically he externally prepared himself to show his repentance and grief.

 

So I think about all this.  That Daniel read these words from Jeremiah, realized something was up and he needed to understand.   So he set aside time, he clothed himself in sackcloth and ashes, and fasted and prayed to God.  I was just floored this morning by Daniel’s response to a question, as compared to how I respond.  Like know, I am praying earnestly for God’s will in my life.  I’ll speak more of this later.  Yet, I’m not like Daniel.  What’s the difference?

I’ve decided that I believe the difference is that Daniel expected an answer.  He was willing to lay everything aside to seek God, knowing that God may answer.  If you don’t believe God may actually answer you, then you won’t keep going.  You won’t fast for 21 days as Daniel did later until an answer finally comes.  Since I haven’t had any answers like this before, I find that my unbelief actually drives my decisions.  I pray, but not that much.  I fast a little, but why impact my life so much.

This evening it finally hit me, part of my problem waiting on God.  I’ve really had a difficult time staying focused.  I have little periods here and there that are good, but overall I can’t stay focused.  I try to quiet everything in side of me, and either that fails after a couple minutes, or I actually fall asleep sitting/kneeling upright.  I try to focus upon Jesus, picture him, and I end up somewhere else as well.  Tonight it hits me.  I need to expect Him to speak.  If I’m so excited to listen to Him, looking for Him, then I also should expect a response.  Yes it may not be right now, but it could.  And there’s the kicker again, unbelief.  When I expect that God may speak to me, I really listen.  I put aside all my thoughts and wait, wait for His voice.  I’ll give this a try and let you know how it goes.

 

Link to youtube videos.

https://www.youtube.com/user/ShekinahWorshipTV/videos?view=0&sort=dd&shelf_id=1

I’ve just began and man… I only listened to the first two so far.  So far even better than last year.  Nathan, if you happen to be reading, where did you go?  Can’t seem to find you, you were my conference buddy to go let me know how it was.

Anyway, first was Neville, speaking of things coming. Americans, need to listen.

Second one really hit me.  It was his son Mark.  He talked about early on, how his eyes were opened and Jesus began to speak to him.  I always love those stories, but it was just simple and profound.  Then speaking of the sort of daily walk he has.  The things that have happened.  You just have to listen.

Ok, so I’m actually curious for your thoughts here. You might look at this and just think duh, that’s what these guys have been talking about, but I feel like the things I’ve been hearing from Sadhu and Neville I have in my head, but I’m slowing getting revelations from the Word itself about this.

It began much like most of these, listening to someone. This time it’s a new guy, Walter Beuttler. I have actually heard him mentioned by Neville in the past, I believe he was one of his mentors as he grew. His ministry was somewhere between the 30’s to 60’s or 70’s. You can find some audio of him on the Academy of Light store. He’s actually got some really good information on living in the Spirit. I think it’s pretty basic pentacostal revelation, but it’s areas that I don’t have much experience, so that part even is good. I’m sure I will go more into it, as I get farther into his teaching.

So let’s just go to scripture.

But just as it is written, “THINGS WHICH EYE HAS NOT SEEN AND EAR HAS NOT HEARD, AND which HAVE NOT ENTERED THE HEART OF MAN, ALL THAT GOD HAS PREPARED FOR THOSE WHO LOVE HIM.” – 1 Corinthians 2:9

I expect most of you to recognize this verse.  We hear it often, especially talking about Heaven, even though the passage is not discussing that.  What you may not have done(like me) is to look up the “just as it is written” portion.

For from days of old they have not heard or perceived by ear,
Nor has the eye seen a God besides You,
Who acts in behalf of the one who waits for Him. – Isaiah 64:4

Did you catch something different there? Notice the ending. We can’t imagine what God has in store for those who love Him, or wait on Him. Odd that while Paul referenced the old, he slightly changed the wording.  Walter Beuttler actually describes this as two parts of the same concept. Waiting is the more physical/action part, loving is the soul/purpose of it. So when you wait upon the Lord, you can’t imagine what he will do for you.

That short detour brings me back to my point.  Basically we cannot comprehend what God has prepared and how He will act on behalf of those who wait on Him and love HIm.  Think about that for a minute.  Those who wait upon Him, He acts on.

Now, let’s jump to one of my new favorite verses.  We’re going to Hebrews 11, you know, the faith chapter.  We start with the basic definition of faith

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. – Hebrews 11:1

Good definition, but sort of vague.  The type of thing you nod your head to, but have trouble wrapping your hands around, now we jump down to what I like better as a definition of faith.

And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him. – Hebrews 11:6

So this verse is telling us that to please God we must have faith, and then tells us about that person with faith.

1. They must believe that God exists
2. They must believe God rewards those who seek Him.

Other translations says something like “those who diligently seek Him”.  So we believe God, and we seek Him.  What is missing here?  When you come from the typical church again, we believe to please God we need to witness to so many people, to host small groups in our home, go on mission trips, and basically do whatever other service to the church we can.  I believe these are all good things in their place, but their place is in seeking God.  You see, the core of our faith is to seek God.  To seek Him we must love and wait upon Him, how else will we know what he has prepared for us.  As Paul tells the Ephesians that:

I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened, so that you will know what is the hope of His calling. – Ephesians 1:18

Until we come to know Him, until we seek Him, we cannot please Him.  In that seeking, waiting and loving, we find ourselves doing those services that He asks and leads us.  I can’t help but remember right now how the Lord met with Kenneth Hagin and told Him it was time to start his ministry, after he had been serving as a pastor of a church for years.  Kenneth Hagin asked what he had been doing, and the Lord answered that He had never asked Him to do that.

If we want to be more pleasing, if we want to be the most fruitful, we must know His will first.

Thoughts?  It’s easy to take this route as an excuse to not serve in other capacities, I think it only makes sense to those who are wholly dedicated to finding God.  I continue to find that I believe I am not there.  I still hold on to things too much, but the Lord continues to work.  I continue to write, I continue to seek.

“To the angel of the church in Ephesus write: The One who holds the seven stars in His right hand, the One who walks among the seven golden lampstands, says this: ‘I know your deeds and your toil and perseverance, and that you cannot tolerate evil men, and you put to the test those who call themselves apostles, and they are not, and you found them to be false; and you have perseverance and have endured for My name’s sake, and have not grown weary. But I have this against you, that you have left your first love. Therefore remember from where you have fallen, and repent and do the deeds you did at first; or else I am coming to you and will remove your lampstand out of its place-unless you repent. (‭Revelation‬ ‭2‬:‭1-5‬ NASB)

I was curious about this so I went out and read a number of posts and websites talking about this scripture. I found them all to be lacking what I was feeling. Especially one in particular. He interpreted the above as a church which had gotten so religious that they focused mainly upon their own rituals and activities and lost track of Jesus. I just don’t see that. God told them that they “endured for His names sake and did not grow weary.” This isnt a church that lost sight of God at all.

I tend to fall upon the revelations of William Branham here. I believe his revelations were proved by his ministry, by the signs and wonders performed. Don’t believe all that you read. In the revelation the Lord gave him, the Ephesians were the first church age, basically from Pentacost through about 235 AD(Nicean council) if I remember correctly. This seems right to me as it speaks of apostles and a vibrant church that did many things. Apostles really haven’t been in place much since the beginning. Some call themselves apostles but not many walk it. So we are talking about the church back then, the kind where peters “shadow” healed people, where Paul put a whole church city in turmoil just by witnessing not of Christ. A time when the power of God was manifest. And this, one of the most powerful churches, God said they lost their love.

Instead of a the previous writer I mentioned who tried to apply this scripture to the current church, you need that context. So what was the problem. That they were seeing such a successful ministry, that they were bringing all these people to Christ, changing the world, but they forgot something.

In the end, what were we made for? To be sons of God, to be friends, to be a bride. Our first role is that of a priest, to minister to God, then to take that to a world. If that relationship begins to suffer, we can cover it over with more effort, but God knows.

No, our initial purpose is to love God. This does not involve mission trips, or bible studies, or even witnessing. This is not the message I tend to hear among many of the evangelical churches I’ve know, even the pentacostal ones.  They focus on your participation, your giving, your sacrifice.  What they cannot see is your heart.  No, this involves coming alone in your room, and loving Him. Talking with Him, meditating upon all His words(Bible or rema words), waiting upon Him, setting your heart upon Him. When you make your love service to Him, you have left your love. You love is him. You can be the bride of Christ.

Do you remember what it was like to first be in love with your spouse. How you could just watch them, stare into their eyes, talk about the dumbest things. How everything they did was wonderful. Now, apply that to Jesus. Do the same things. Treat Him them same way. Make your love real and vibrant, not a show of what services you can provide but what love you can express. Woo Him. Sing love songs to Him. Touch His heart.

Draw near… for you know what the result of that is.

This stemmed from a conversation I was having with the Lord.  Let me jump off track for just a second and say that I’m so jealous of those people who can say things like “The Lord told me this, and I respond ‘such and such’ and He came back and said ‘this or that'”.  I am jealous that they know the Lord’s voice so well that it’s not a question of if they heard, but if they follow.  Most Christians I know don’t know the Lord’s voice.  They hear something that sounds like their Conscious, or the Holy Spirit, or often a legalistic spirit telling them to do things.  They don’t have that closeness to identify His voice either.

I say all this to

  1. Let you know that I really want this and feel like it’s so very necessary
  2. Make sure you take my comments with a grain of salt

So it starts with the conversation.  I’ve continued to try and get up early to get more time with the Lord.  Nothing like Sadhu, but early enough I technically don’t get enough sleep. I  pull it off for a day or two then my body sort of crashes ( I’ve made it like 4 or 5 days maybe ).  End up late to work, etc.  I spend some of the time Waiting on the Lord, but I’m not refreshed and renewed.  So I was asking the Lord about it.  I told Him that I sort of feel like until I’m actually successful waiting, until I’m making that connection consistently, then I probably can’t receive the benefits.  But then I got smart and asked Him what is my problem here.  Why I seem a bit stuck.  Then I waited and focused on Him.

And I got an answer.  It’s funny, I could put words to some of it because my mind was doing one of it’s “I forget English” things, but I got the feeling/impression behind it.  Basically it’s like so much else, I can’t be entrusted with too much until I show consistency.  And it’s not a “I must be up at this exact time of day consistency”, but more like “I will put time aside for the Lord consistency”.  Every day I need to make the time, force it if need be, to pray, read, worship and wait.  That’s pretty much the basics I know.  I read Sadhu’s book “The Spirit Controlled Life”.  It has a lot of very interesting stories and nuggets of truth, but when you come down to the way to grow in the Spirit, it falls back to these same basic principles.  The same things we’ve know for much of our christian lives we just don’t hold them that close.

I will do them well for a while, then get busy, sleepy, etc, and miss my quiet time in the morning.  Then is where I think one of my current problems comes in.  Is walking with God more important than the rest of my life.  Will I step aside from my work to spend a little time in prayer.  Will I interrupt family time for my God time.  What happens now is I have good motives, that are just not good enough.  I will work hard, or care for my family, and come back to God when I have a chance.  It makes sense at the time, until you look back.

So I felt the Lord was telling me, be consistent in the basics.  When your consistent there, I can open up more to you.

So since I’m on this kick of not moving back, not stalling, I need to make this work, to make this happen. I need the Lord.

Speaking of which, it’s late, better get to bed cause I plan on getting up early tomorrow.