Tag Archive: I stand at the door and knock


So I wanted to just post a quick update of something I found interesting today. Yesterday I was listening to Neville Johnson’s message on “When God knocks on your door”. He talks about how God may try to get your attention thoughout the day, and how the Holy Spirit uses different methods to catch your attention and see if you will step away to listen. Some of these were songs stuck in your head that you didn’t start, hearing your name but knowing no one said it, sudden presence of The Lord, other things like this.

So this morning I wake up late and miss some time I wanted. But as I’m getting ready I realize there’s a song stuck in my head. It’s “I can transform you”, by no means a Christian song, yet there it was. Seemed odd. So I stopped to ask The Lord if that was him. As I pondered on that I felt like The Lord was saying that he can transform me, I can’t do it on my own.  I have been trying to rely upon myself too much when I am such a sinner, it’s only God’s grace that moves me along.  I can choose, but I need His strength to enable me.  So at this point I humbled myself and asked the Lord to help me to keep Him in my thoughts today.

I get to work, and lose Him for a while.  I get caught up in lots of things, so really not so surprising.  This time I get the line from a Frozen song stuck in my head “Love is an open door”.  After it being there for a while, I stop and think again, hmm, maybe this is God knocking again.  So again, I wander off and think for a little bit and try to just pray a little and listen.  I keep coming back to the “open door”, that we have to make it through a door.  Either the revelation open door in heaven or “I stand at the door and knock”, either way, love is part of the key.  I need to not only keep my mind upon him, but with love.  That it’s the love for the Lord that helps to open the door.

Then again, a few hours later, I step away from my desk and the presence just hits me.  Slight presence, but there, and no reason, I hadn’t thought about Him yet.  Again, the Lord was just calling to me, reminding me to walk with Him.  I asked the Holy Spirit to help me to keep Him in my thoughts, and He keeps knocking, keeps trying to get my attention.

 

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I’m going to start by taking your through a very common and unnaturally hard struggle in my life. I don’t know that you really care to hear it, but I think you’ll find some similarities with things in your own life.

For the life of me, I can’t get up in the morning. Of course part of the problem is I’m actually shooting for a really early time. I have been trying to test out Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj’s teaching about waiting on The Lord, that The Lord will give back strength to you when you sacrifice to Him. So I’ll make it up one day, then sleep in the next. I’ll miss an alarm one day, another I’ll hear it but decide I’m too tired. Another day we fall asleep on the couch, for me to wake up at 2am, to clean up and get back in bed. The next day we do something similar, then my wife comes to bed just as I’m about to get up, so I’m so happy to be holding her I just can’t get myself up on time. Another day she comes back in to bed(we fall asleep on the couch a lot, have you noticed that) just about the time I’m going to get up. I don’t want her to realize exactly what time I am getting up cause she’ll most likely not understand, so I try to lay in bed a little longer and miss it. Almost every time I tell myself I’ll just lay for a little long, it immediately becomes an hour at least. Some days I look at the sequence of the last couple days and can’t imagine that chance could even pull this off. I am by nature a little lazy, so that helps, but I think as I really try to spend more time with The Lord, the enemy works against me.

I say this whole thing to bring up the point of this, the little things. It really comes back to being a bond-servant. There’s a couple things like this, that I know God would like me to spend time with Him and waiting on Him, so I figure out a time to do it, then I don’t make it happen. I don’t arrange my life so that I can insure this time. Similarly, I don’t do good on family prayer and devotional time. Its such a simple thing, but amazing what reasons I can come up with for not getting around to it today.

Obedience. If I can’t obey God in the little things, He will never promote me on to the bigger things. If I don’t listen when he asks to do something, I’ll stop hearing Him. I’m pretty convinced now this is why many Christians don’t hear God. We stopped listening at some point, and He moved on without us.

A lot of us this came up because I ran across a little book from Walter Beuttler talking about the manifest presence of God. I’ll speak more about this and give you a link later once I’ve finished it.  He had an experience where God had told him He would send him around the world, then told him to get a passport. Walter didn’t do it because He didn’t have any money. God told Him three times and each time He responded to God to say why, because he didn’t have money for tickets. Then one day a women came and gave him a ticket to go somewhere that she couldn’t use. It was 2 weeks out and it takes 4 weeks to get a passport. So he missed it. He says he went the next 9 months waiting for God to send him somewhere. Because he didn’t obey he missed an opportunity.

How many of those have I missed. How much have I missed out hearing from God because I’m not disciplined enough to actually just make a daily time in the morning. Because I can’t work out with my family a time for these things to happen. It scares me sometimes.  In that book he had experiences very much like mine.  He said he tried to get up early.  His alarm would go off, then he went back to bed.  He did this a couple days, realized it wasn’t working, then asked the Lord to wake him up.  At the right time, he awoke(first was a bird at his window, then an argument in the house, then a car crash that woke him up), then went back to bed.  This happened three days.  At this point he asked the Lord to wake him up and keep him up.  So the next morning he awoke sick to his stomach and ran to the bathroom, when he got back, guess what time it is.  Maybe I should make more of a point to get up so God doesn’t start doing this to me.  I have actually noticed that when I sincerely come to the Spirit and ask for help to get up to meet with God, that most of the time(maybe all, I’m not sure) I wake up at that time, alarm or not.  If I don’t ask, there are days I sleep through my alarm and never notice.

All this to say.  We are in a war against our flesh.  God must come first.

Behold I stand at the door and knock, if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him, and he with Me. – Revelation 3:20

I used to think this was some special knock, some special situation.  Instead I have come to learn that, especially at first, it’s the little things.  It’s the morning I wake up early as if I heard a voice or an actual knock.  It’s the random time in the day where I hear my name called, but it wasn’t anyone else.  It was the sudden presence of the Lord that comes upon me.  It’s the song that comes into my head out of nowhere.  Neville Johnson calls these things God knocking at our door.  God is requesting to meet with us or telling us something.  As Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj says, he’s a perfect gentlemen.  If we don’t answer, he will go away and not bother us.  Ask the woman from the Song of Solomon who wouldn’t get out of bed quick enough.  We must learn to set aside our own feelings, our fleshly desires, and to order our lives around Him.  When He comes knocking, we should step aside and wait upon Him.

This is such a simple and “easy” first step.  There’s no special spirituality required.  There’s not intense training or knowledge.  Its the discernment that the Lord might be trying to talk to you, and having enough desire to do something about it.  It’s making a point to get to bed early so you can awake in time for a quiet time in the morning.  It’s overcoming our fleshly desires.  This is the thing anyone can understand and practice, no matter how “spiritual” they are.  And perhaps it’s also the entrance to growing that many never make it past.