I’ve thought about this a bit over the last day or two.  I think one of the biggest differences between some of these people like Neville and Sadhu may come down to something as simple as self-discipline.  They were called to ministry, I haven’t been(so far), and there is of course of lot of other stuff, but I believe their discipline is one of the things that sets them apart.

Take Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj for example.  Just listen to some of his stories about his past and you’ll see.  He spoke of when he got the revelation to get up at 3 in the morning everyday, and how he tried that.  He talked about how he’s just like us and that he would turn off his alarm and go back to sleep, but then you realize he did this for about 3 or 4 days, then got it down.  Also with waiting upon the Lord.  He talked about how the first day he could only make it 5 or 10 minutes, and each day he kept trying and trying until he could go for 30 minutes in perfect silence.  That took him a week.  I’ve been trying for months, maybe years, I’m still not there.  I tried getting up early(not the time he did), and I can’t even maintain that for the 7 days he says it takes to create a pattern for your body.

I think when he decides to do something, he does it.  He’s not going to flirt around with it like most of us do with New Year’s resolutions and diets.  We say how determined we are, then we get tired and exhausted with life and just don’t keep it up.  I find this in so many areas of my life.  I can’t help but think of the churches in Revelation 2 and 3.  “To them who overcome”.  We are meant to be overcomers.  Even if that’s as simple as overcoming our addiction to Dr Pepper(yeah, that’s me).  My wife and I joke that we can justify just about anything.  I’ll point out, that our anything is Dr. Pepper, dessert and pizza.  But we can always come up with an excuse to endulge ourselves.  I wonder what God thinks of our excuses to not fast, spend time with Him, praise Him, etc.

I think perhaps if we realized just how important discipline is.  If we realize that we try to do many of these things for the Lord, and what the great rewards are for those who persevere in Godly pursuits.  If I find some magic willpower, I’ll be sure to let you know.  Until then, I will just have to strengthen the purpose of my heart.  I am seeking the God of the universe, if I can’t manage to skip a meal every so often to pray, then I need to get over myself.  (Yeah, fasting often has been rough for me too).

One of my greatest fears revolves around this.  Possibly my biggest fear is to find myself at the end of my life before God, He will show me this table full of all the good things He prepared for me, then ask me when I didn’t use any of them.  Then I will weep.  I will weep that I was too content with my life to take the time to reach Him  I was too content to spend the effort to gain those gifts of His prepared for me.  I will weep that I would try so often to discipline myself to enter in, and give up just as often.  You see, the predominant spirit over our church is the Laodicean spirit.

“Because you say I am rich, and have become wealthy, and have need of nothing,” and you do not know that you are wretched and miserable and poor and blind and naked. – Revelation 3:17

We have so much that we think is going for us, that we’re content.  We seem ok, why fight?  Why struggle against our flesh and the world so much?  Why surrender it to God?  “Life is good”, we say(I have several of those shirts).  And we miss out.  We must overcome this spirit.  We do so by our choice.  It’s not by any strength we have, or any abilities we have cultivated.  The strength is from the Lord, the abilities our His.  All we have is our choice.  This morning I choose to get up early even though I feel tired, because I want the time with God.  Tomorrow I may choose to fast and spend the time in prayer to Him.

Let me encourage you just as I am newly motivated.  Stand.  When you choose something for the Lord, do it.  Don’t go back and forth, be big enough to do it for the Lord and stick with it.  It’s time to make goals and keep them.  Worst that happens is we fail.  Instead, we do even worse and just give up and not see it through.  Whether it works or not, I’m ready to stick with a choice and find out what happens.  I’m tired of wasting my time.  This world is about to start changing, God is starting to move, and I want to be ready.  When things start happening, I don’t want to be off guard, I want to be ready to help.