I think this is partially an outgrowth from Hebrews 12

“Therefore, since have such a great cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us throw aside every hindrance and the sin which so easily entangles”

Sometimes we have entanglements that can turn into sin easily, as many things can.  Once they grow to start taking time from the Lord, it can turn into a sin.  So I’m noticing areas of my life where these hindrances, are… well… hindrances.  It’s just that at this point in my life, I finally care enough to really do something.  Many of them I’ll take time to make them better, only to have them surface again.

So now I have made a commitment.  Every since I’ve heard both Neville and Sadhu speak about the angels that come to take down your commitments to the Lord in a book, I have been very hesitant.  It’s easy to act like God isn’t really a person, and to go back on our commitments just like we do new years resolutions, but I’m actually afraid of that now.  I have been sort of terrified of making any commitments to the Lord, knowing that I will most likely not keep them, and I can’t stand to let Him down in that way.  I’m actually sort of fearful that in letting Him down, I may shut a door I can’t get back in.

So a couple days ago, I made a commitment.  And I plan to keep it.  And it’ll be a long time.  Hope I’m not being too dumb, but I feel a need to start making drastic decisions.  It may be that I cut something out of my life that isn’t necessary to cut off, and I could feel like I miss out on stuff later, but really, Jesus is worth more than it all.  And I’m already married so I at least don’t have to worry about celibacy. 🙂

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