Tag Archive: Waiting on God


This is actually a response to a question from another post, but figured it’d be good to get out there and say my thoughts here.  The original question was when I’m trying to wait on God, do I clear my mind or focus upon the Word.

How I see it, those are two things.

First there’s meditating upon the Word.  In this instance you probably want to spend time in prayer and worship to get yourself “in the spirit”, basically to where you feel the presence of the Lord, and get focused more upon Him.  Then you take some scripture, and just spend time on it.  What you’ll see I often do is use time when I’m doing something like mowing the yard ( doesn’t take much thought ) or driving to just mull over scriptures.  Repeat it, say it out loud, think through each part of it, etc.  I still think that’s just part of it, and that there’s a much deeper part I haven’t gotten to you.  This is mainly from Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj’s teachings on meditating on the Word.  He says you get in that quiet place, and then just go over and over it.  When you do this, you have different levels of revelation.  The first level is where I typically get to, the Holy Spirit speaking to you, other levels are angels coming to make things clear, the Lord speaking directly to you, Jesus coming, or even going into the Word to experience it.  Neville Johnson also speaks about this some in His teachings.  Both are similar enough in that you get into that quiet place where you are in His presence, and then just focus upon the Word and stay there.  Keep reading, speaking, thinking.  Preferably until something happens.

I don’t do enough of that.

Since I don’t get as much time along and quiet, I tend to try for the other thing, waiting on God.  I’m actually going to sort of take this 3 ways here…

  1. Watching with you eyes, from Praying Medic – From his books ( focused more upon seeing in the Spirit ), he starts with getting in the dark, praising the Lord quietly, and just watching.  Basically try to keep a blank “visual” image and see what shows up.  Keep practicing this to start seeing with your Spiritual eyes.
  2. Visualization.  Neville talks more about visualize.  So in this case, you focus upon the Lord.  Again, very similar to above, first spend time in prayer, praise and worship.  Clear everything else out, find that place of feeling God’s presence, and then just sit and soak.  Picture Jesus in your mind, and stay there.  If need be, speak in tongues quietly or have some music(without words) in the background.  Try to keep your mind clear but focus upon the Lord.  Something I’ll just very quietly praise Jesus or even just say His name to stay focused.
  3. Stillness.  This is Sadhu.  He doesn’t talk about visualizing ( though he doesn’t say anything against that).  Basically he’s big things are desiring the Lord and staying very still and quiet.  This is perhaps the hardest as your mind will just go and go.   I think that’s the case in all of these.  There was one series where he discussed when he first started doing this.  He would come into complete stillness ( no other thoughts, just complete quiet in his mind ) as long as he could.  After a while he got up to going 30 minutes at a time, then suddenly the Lord spoke to him audibly.  If you want to know this, I can probably track down the right one, I know I’ve mentioned it before.

 

In any of the cases, the really big things I’d say are:

  1. Desire – You must come in love for the Lord and yearning for Him.
  2. Expectation – Expect Him to show up, it makes it more real.
  3. Stillness – Try to stop any thought of yours.  It will be hard and takes practice, but that’s what practice is for.  This is something you have to train yourself, but if you can’t be still, you’ll have trouble hearing.

 

In my cases, I think I tend to try to just visualize the Lord and stay quiet ( sort of a combination ).  What I haven’t done is continue to do this day after day and make sure I start building up that endurance to stay there.  Like with so many of these things, I do it for a while, then fall off and I’m not as earnest.

Hope this helps.

Ok, so let’s start with an initial review of the book.

Basically, I thought it was great.  So far I’ve listened to a lot from Sadhu Sundar Selvaray and Neville Johnson about topics like this.  I’m personally not as focused on seeing in the Spirit as just walking with God.  To do so, I need to see Him, I need to hear Him, I need to be in His presence.  So this topic sort of fits into the goal, but not as much that I may see as I may know Him.  That’s one thing I do know through this.  You do not pursue spiritual encounters, or gifts, or events.  You pursue God.  If in your pursuit you look for encounters, great.  If in your pursuit a gift will make you more useful, awesome.  But you pursue God.  “One thing I ask of the Lord, and this is what I seek, that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life.  To gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple”.  ( Psalm somewhere )

So, what I found great about this book was having more practical examples of someone on the journey.  It’s great to hear about the experiences people have, that will motivate and push us on, but if those people cannot convey the path, it’s hard to follow.  Michael broke this down into a bit more practical pieces.  His examples on how he began to see in the Spirit were especially good, as he gave us some “on the way” moments.  He also gave a lot of good basics for the journey, things you need to avoid and watch for.  What I had hoped more for was his own journey.  I really love to hear about someone when they decided this is possible, the path they took, and how it happened.  I know we don’t follow the same path, but it’s like a lot of these guys gloss over the process, probably because it took a while and so many little steps and other things.  Who knows.  Still, it gave me a bit of new material and as always a bit more motivation to get going.

 I’ve pasted in all the sections I marked in the book below, it’s a bit, so read if you want.

 

Seems like everyone says “you are as close to god as you want to be”. Must be right on if pretty much everyone says so variation of it. And it’s true in my life I’m sure. If I wanted more in the past I would’ve tried harder and focused more. Instead I like things as they are.

Breaking through your soul to the spirit

By reading and studying and meditating on the Word of God, the Word breaks those ties between your spirit and soul.

The more you meditate on the Word, the greater the separation becomes and the more your spirit becomes unencumbered with the soul and the flesh. And at this point, actual spiritual veils that cover your eyes begin to be removed.
Practical comments about starting to see in the spirit. Spoke to me as I have some of these things happen, little things you want to dismiss even though you know it was there. This just helped give me confidence that something is happening. It’s a process

They were things that most people would dismiss as a “trick of the light”, or as “your eyes playing tricks on you”. (It is something you need to keep in mind from here forward.) There would be a small flash of light on my left, a movement of some sort on my right and various shifting colors in front of me that I couldn’t quite see clearly.

Always back to practicing the presence



We can focus our attention on natural things and be fully engaged spiritually. We do this by meditating on the Word, or by “Practicing the presence of God.” (Brother Lawrence 1614-1691)

And waiting on God. Again everyone speaks of that.

One of the things I heard early on from everyone who had any degree of spiritual sight, was, you have to “wait on the Lord.” As you wait on the Lord, you position yourself to receive from God.
is your mentor, you will not be spinning your wheels on this journey and wasting your time.

What i liked here was his version. He basically likes to pick nights times to wait, often staying. Up late or getting up in the night, not so much focused on every day.



We cannot and must not pursue the gifts as an end to themselves. No matter how good our reasons might be. Yes, I want to lay hands on the sick and see them healed. Yes I love to see and experience the miraculous things of God. And I love being in the spirit. And I love seeing angels. But all those things have to flow out of our relationship with Him.
It is crucial that you honor the little things, the little strides you make as you go along. You will then be in position to receive greater. As we begin to move into practical application, be very aware of every improvement, everything that your senses pick up helps you develop greater capacity.

Removing veils



What removes the veils? What puts all those holes and cuts and tears in them? Well, there is quite a list that is covered in an upcoming chapter but for starters I will tell you that it’s things like repentance, forgiveness, sanctification and warfare. It really isn’t difficult, it’s just hard. To remove the veils when we’ve spent years, allowing them to cover us through sin, doubt, ignorance and other things, takes a commitment of our time.

Random comment from Bob Jones that just stood out to me

I walked over to Bob and asked him, “How long do you have to wait for prophetic revelation?” And his answer to me was, “Until it comes.”

More focus on repentance. I know holiness is key to relationship, but he had some more practical things to say in this book.



The first thing about repentance is the obvious thing. If you have any sin in your life you have to repent. Turn and go the other way. Get extreme. Repent for yourself, your family, your household, and your ancestors. Leave no stone, as they say.
The Lord loves it when we repent. And He is not sitting off in the sky somewhere disinterested in our lives. He isn’t waiting to punish us when we get it wrong. He gave me a lesson in repentance I will never forget and I never felt one iota of condemnation from Him. He is a good God.

In addition to reading the word and in addition to praying and asking God to sanctify me, I ask the Lord for His holy fire to cleanse and sanctify me.
Personally, I minister deliverance to myself every day.
Prophetess Ana Mendez Ferrell has a book on iniquity that lays it all out as to what it is and how to deal with it. I highly recommend that you read it. It will change your life.
leave the other half undone. To give you an idea of the scope and thoroughness that I’m talking about, when I did this it took me three weeks of constantly asking the Holy Spirit to reveal areas of my life or acts that I needed to repent over. And to be completely honest, I don’t think I’m done yet. When you have done this, you then command all of the garbage, and all of the physical substance formed by iniquity to leave you in Jesus’ name. I prayed and commanded this for my spirit, soul and body. Be prepared to possibly be sick for a couple of days as this stuff leaves you. I personally wasn’t sick but I just kept spitting stuff up for a few days.
Practices to do



Engaging the Kingdom Revelation –Ask the Lord to give you the Spirit of Wisdom and Revelation. Find a quiet time that you won’t be disturbed and spend some time with the Lord. I plan on at least forty-five minutes to an hour and a half. Repentance –I know it’s hard but ask the Lord to bring to mind every sin. Anything you could possibly repent for and do it. Do it just before you go to bed and then ask the Lord to give you further revelation about it as you sleep. Sanctification –Find a quiet place and a quiet time to do this. Sit very, very still in a comfortable chair and close your eyes and ask the Lord to sanctify you. At first ask aloud, but after a few minutes, ask in your mind and picture the lord pouring fire on your head every time you ask. Again, spend at least forty-five minutes doing this. I mentioned earlier that I spent two hours and the result is pure joy. Deliverance –Invest in a book such as “Pigs in the Parlor” by Frank Hammond, or another book that lists groupings of evil spirits. Read through the list and command anything that has invaded your life to leave in Jesus’ name. Even if this sounds distasteful to you, just do it at least once to cover all the bases, so to speak. Iniquity –Get Ana Mendez Ferrell’s book and follow the full instructions laid out for removing iniquity.
We already have it



All we are doing is enforcing a victory that Christ has already won for us. His authority and power are on display in our lives, not our own. As we speak His word, angelic armies are set in motion. The more your eyes open, the more you will see the reality of this. …The joy of the Lord is your strength. (Nehemiah 8: 10)
Do not strive for your spiritual sight. Know that the Lord wants you to see. Know that the Lord will not withhold any good thing from you. And do your warfare from that place of confidence in God that He has already won the victory. Do it with joy!

Focused prayer. I’ve been realizing this is important more lately and it’s always good to get some validation.

When you pray, try to be focused on what you are praying about. In general, that is a good rule. Specific to our journey, as you pray for your eyes to open, pray with your entire being. Pray with your voice, your desire, your soul, your consciousness and with your thoughts.

Praying for others

as we pray for others to get the blessings they need from the Lord, He also blesses us.
Pressing through in prayer is praying until you have a sense that something has been done. Something has been accomplished.

Forgot why I marked this, I think good verses to pray over your family



… As for me and my house we will serve the Lord. (Joshua 24: 15) No weapon formed against us shall prosper…. (Isaiah 54: 17) He has given His angels charge over us… (Psalms 91: 11) Angels listen for God’s word to perform it. And they do. The Bible says Thou shalt also decree a thing and it shall be established unto thee, and light shall shine upon thy ways. (Job 22: 28) There is power in your decree and in your agreement with this word of the Lord. If you decree on the authority of the Word that your eyes will open and see clearly, it will come to pass. The Lord is not a man that He should lie, nor the son of man that He should repent. If He said it, will He not do it? (Numbers 23: 19)

More practice

Engaging the Kingdom Prayer –Pick something that you really need or you really want to pray about. Pray exactly the way I described it to you. See the prayer coming to pass in your mind and imagination. Keep your whole being engaged and of one accord. Do this at first for at least ten minutes and try to add more time as you continue. It becomes easier. Intercession –There is someone in your life who you really have no desire to pray for. Think for a few minutes on where this person may spend eternity. Ask the Lord to give you a burden for this person. Give them one hour of the best blessing and prayer that anyone has ever prayed over them. Afterward, sit very quiet and still and ask the Lord if He wants to tell you anything, and then listen for his voice. Or, if there is someone with a great need, intercede the same way for two hours. Decree, Declare and Prophesy! –Consider any problem or situation you have going on in your life. Decree every day ten times a day what you desire to come to pass. Do this for a week and watch God move. Declare every morning and every night just before sleep that the eyes of your heart are being enlightened. And finally, prophesy over your home. “Home, you are a Bethel and a gateway to Heaven. You are a habitation of angels. You are a place to reveal the Lord’s glory!” As you do these things, be sensitive to the spiritual atmosphere around you and in your home. See how the atmosphere changes. In all these “exercises” be aware of what is going on around you.
Journaling. Interesting how he talked about putting value to what god shows by writing it down. I noticed if I don’t write things down, I will forgot no matter what impression it made on me.

One of the very first things you should do is buy a journal or a notebook of some kind.
Workouts and waiting – good practical stuff if you’re not sure how to wait on God

Being aware is the first step. You know the spiritual reality is right there where you can reach out and touch it. It’s closer than that. Stillness is a key. You can’t sense or feel or see anything if you are preoccupied with anything in the natural. You have to take some time to do your “workout.” Five minutes here and two minutes there will do nicely because it will keep you engaged more so than spending an hour and then forgetting about it.
When you wait on the Lord, you are making yourself available to Him. Whatever you want Lord, is what you are saying. My time is your time.
After everyone goes to bed and I’m pretty sure they are asleep, I go to my prayer chair downstairs. My prayer chair is a big comfortable, overstuffed chair in the living room. Sometimes I will kneel first, just to acknowledge Jesus’ lordship over my life. Sometime I will stay there for a while and sometimes for only a few minutes. Then I sit in my chair and purposely try to get as comfortable as possible. It can be very distracting if you are in an uncomfortable position while you are trying to pray. I repent of any known or unknown sins in my life. I ask the Lord to remove anything that defiles me and anything that offends Him. Sometimes I ask the Lord to send His Seraphim with coals to sanctify me. And then I sit very, very still. I stress this because if you are thinking about all the movements that you are making, scratching your nose, adjusting your glasses or just moving too much, your focus will be divided. You are trying to engage the spirit realm and your focus will be on the natural. You don’t want to divide your focus. So now I’m comfortable and I’m sitting very still with my eyes closed. Sometimes I will picture the Lord Jesus in my mind. This is very much like if I asked you to close your eyes and “see” what your house looks like. Or, sometimes I will think about a scripture or even a previous vision that the Lord has shown me. Now I wait. I wait with the expectation that the Lord will speak to me or manifest Himself to me in some way. I “listen” as if I am on guard and I have to be diligent to hear any strange sounds no matter how faint they may be. In other words I actively listen. 
I just want to take a minute to remind you that as believers we have a right to seek and expect for the Lord to visit with us or appear to us or embrace anything else He wants to do. Whoever has my commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves me, and he who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and manifest myself to him (John 14: 21

Imagination

Use your imagination in every part of your Christian walk. Use it in prayer, and in worship. Use it while waiting on the Lord, or when praying for the sick. Practice using your imagination by putting yourself into biblical scenes or imagine the visions that John or Ezekiel describe as if they are happening to you. What will happen is that you will find yourself being “pulled” into these visionary experiences. The doorway is your imagination.

Another practice session
Engaging the Kingdom Journaling –Get your journal started. Let your first entry be a prayer to the Lord that He Himself would fill that journal with mighty exploits that give Him glory! Exercise your Senses –Pick the hour that will best work for you, morning or night, and spend ten to fifteen minutes looking on the unseen. Also, take a few minutes to also do this as you wait on the Lord. Waiting on God –This one is your key to supernatural adventures in God. Do not neglect this. You will not be disappointed. Do the things I described for you and try to wait on the Lord for forty-five minutes to an hour and a half. If you are able to spend more time with the Lord, maybe on a day when you don’t have to get up early the next day, go a little longer! Imagination –Pick out some scriptures that you really love, and imagine yourself as being there. Imagine the sights, sounds, smells, feelings and emotions. Try to make a promise to yourself that you will do this at least twice a week until it starts to transport into the experience.

I’ve seen this verse a lot, it hasn’t hit home with me like other things by it’s mentioned by a lot of people

God is no respecter of persons, what He does for another He will do for you.
can honestly say that watching and participating with this program has taken our family into the most incredible things we have ever experienced! Again, it’s the power of a testimony!

Be hungry

If you are hungry for God, go wherever you have to. If you are hungry to see, get around the people who already do. I like how Pastor Bill Johnson addresses this subject. “Everyone says you shouldn’t follow after signs and wonders. I say follow them until they start following you!”
He wants us to be hungry. He wants us to contend for His presence. He wants us to draw from Him and drink from His provision.
If you want your home to be a place where you see angels and even strangers feel the presence of God, you have to make it so.

Fasting

Prayer is reaching out after the unseen; fasting is letting go of all that is seen and temporal. Fasting helps express, deepen and confirm the resolution that we are ready to sacrifice anything, even ourselves, to attain what

I mentioned that sometimes I’m led by the Lord before I fast. You cannot live a fasted life that way though. Fast even without being led, even if it’s only a meal, or a day.
There is extreme power in extreme actions when they are born of God.
The power of prayer and fasting together cannot be over emphasized. Giving up the desire of your body to eat and then also giving up the desires of your soul (your agenda) so that you can pray, will overcome any and every obstacle.

Another practice round

Fasting –Make a commitment to fast at least one meal, twice a week. Also, pick a day when you won’t be expected to eat, and fast the day. If that seems daunting at all, then fast from desserts or breads for a day. God will honor that. He is training us. He is our helper. As your experience with fasting deepens, then you can fast a full day, then three days, then seven. If you have medical issues, be smart and don’t make yourself ill. As your eyes are opened to the supernatural, your fasting will be motivated by the incredible experiences the lord gives you. Extreme Prayer –Pick something or someone you are passionate about, and go double the distance you have prayed before. If you’ve prayed an hour, go two, if two, go four. Get up and pray during the watch of the night. The supernatural realm seems to be more accessible during the night watch. If you have a day or can take a day and focus on prayer, try praying in tongues for eight hours. Don’t strain for it. Pray all day but don’t let it be work. Work gets tedious too fast. Keep joy in your prayer front and center. At the end of your prayer, always try to sit in stillness for at least ten minutes to really feel God’s presence and let Him speak to you. • Make sure and keep journal entries for your times of prayer and fasting. It will be a great benefit as you look and see what works for you and what doesn’t.
no longer focus on “not” committing sins. That is one thing the Lord showed me early on. If you focus on not committing the sin, you are still focused on the sin. If I feel tempted in any type of sin, or even if I don’t, my focus turns to Christ. Any thought that would offend the Lord is driven out and I imagine Him standing right there with me as if He can see my thoughts, because He can.
I try to practice the presence of the Lord in an ongoing manner, no matter where I am or what I’m doing.

Time is important

A great benefit of spending a lot of time in God’s presence a, is that His presence also surrounds your atmosphere,
Going back over my journal entries, I’ve discovered that if I spend at least a couple of hours a day in prayer, my eyes are open. If I spend less, it’s kind of hit and miss. If I spend much less, my eyes being opened seem to be completely a sovereign thing.

So I’m struggling.  It really convicts me to read back in posts or in a journal to see that I feel like I’m in the same spot as months or even years ago.  It just seems wrong.  Mainly, I think I’m just not consistant.  and I let sin in.  I’m making a big effort on both, but I’ll talk about that more another time.

Here I want to go into Waiting.  I’m listening back to Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj again, and realizing that I keep messing it up.  At times I’ve made waiting a task.  I did 20 minutes, mark that off, why am I not more Godly?  Other times I’ve tried, but in the wrong way.  I try to force things or don’t have my heart in it.  So I was going back over some basics.  When he defined waiting on the Lord, he looked up several of the words used and used those or other things, but here’s the basic concepts for waiting.

  1. Be still
  2. Be quiet
  3. Be alone
  4. Anticpate of the Lord
  5. Be Humble
  6. Look for God and not an experience

Basically, make sure you’re along in a quiet place and stay still.  I started actually turning my phone to do not disturb.  I usually shoot for early morning, so I don’t get much but even emails may buzz and throw me.  I want no interruptions.

Humility.  Not always my strongest suit.  In this case, we know that everything that can come is from God.  We don’t deserve anything, we can’t earn it.  For now I just try to acknowledge that I’m here waiting for Him to speak.  I know its only by His grace that I will get anything.

Anticipate the Lord.  Neville talks about emotions.  If then you try to clear your mind, you focus upon the Lord.  Haven’t really gotten this down.  I either try to visualize Him, or just set my emotions/heart upon Him.  I try to sit in anticipation that He may show up.  That I may hear from Him.  Love Him.  That’s so important.

Looking for God.  One thing he empasized is that God is not an entertainer.  So if you’re looking for a vision for a vision’s sake, it won’t come.  If you want to see Heaven, it probably won’t happen.  God isn’t here to cater to our entertainment.  So I just make a point that I want God, and only God.  All these things are great, but my base goal is to come to know Him, to be with Him.

So I wait.

The Spirit and the bride say, “Come.” – Revelation 22:17

So I’ve been listening to and getting a lot of different stuff over the past couple months.  I’ve adding a number of things to what I was starting with and found that I got a little overwhelmed with where I was focused.  Figure it’s a good time to get back to the basics.  I went through and updated my “Journey Steps” page.  It now includes a number of new areas.  Think of it as a condensed list of all the areas of my life that are involved with waiting upon the Lord.  Originally that was the different steps I followed, I sort of turned it into more of an outline of the concepts and steps.  May have to re-do that again later.

But for this post, I’m just thinking about the action items themselves.  Here’s the list of the day-by-day things I feel are so important for me to follow if I’m to keep moving forward here.

  1. Get up early.  Time is my enemy.  My only chance to really find time with the Lord is to get up early, way early.  I really think I can only pull this off through God(original post here).  I’ve found if I cry out to God the night before saying I can only do this through Him, I tend to get the chance to wake up on time, otherwise I’ll probably sleep through my alarm.  I need to make this a habit, I guess starting today since I messed up this morning. =)
  2. Pray my prayer every day, at least twice a day(when I wake up, when I go to sleep).
  3. Start early with praise and worship.  Try to praise until I feel His presence.  In the morning this often takes me 15-20 minutes worth of songs, then I just try to worship a little
  4. Wait upon the Lord, at least for 20 minutes a day.  Wait expectantly, with emotion, and hope.
  5. Meditate on the Word.  Each morning I want a scripture to meditate on during my quiet time, but also through the day.  Either try to memorize, or memorize and quote.  The idea is to at least get one bit of revelation each day.
  6. Holiness is not an option.  If I fail, I repent immediately.  If I choose, I choose God.  Without holiness it’s impossible to see God.  Sin must be thrown off.
  7. Fast – At least once a week fast for at least a meal.  At first I’m focusing on breaking habitual sins, we’ll see where we go from there.
  8. Practice His presence – Consecrate my mind to Him.  Don’t daydream about other things, try to stay in His presence and visualize Him throughout the day.
  9. Pray in tongues – Spend some time in the morning, but also just randomly through the day.  Use to keep in a prayerful state.
  10. Intercession – Take time to intercede, crying out to God for things.  Whether that’s for this journey, or for others.

So I’ve been praying a new prayer, I’ll add it to a post soon, but part of it is from Ephesians 1:18

That the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of his calling, and what are the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints,

As I was praying this, I noticed something: “That I would know the hope of his calling and the riches of his inheritance.”  As I was thinking about this, I realized how helpful really knowing this would be toward evangelism.  To really know the hope of his calling, and not just the knowledge we get from Bible studies.

If I were to say one of my weak points, it’s evangelism.  If someone were to ask, I would tell.  I live my life in a way people know it’s different; yet, I’m not bold.  I have had trouble trying to figure out why.  I pray about this, because I don’t want to stay that way, but I never really change.  So as I was reading the above, asking God to open my eyes to know this, I started to wonder, maybe I’ve been going about this wrong all along.

You see, we’re good at praying and asking God to help us, then going off to try and fix it ourselves.  So I would pray to be bold, and then I would try to work up the courage.  Perhaps that’s not the right way.  Just perhaps, I should ask the Lord for a spirit of boldness, or for a something like that, and then wait on Him.  Perhaps I shouldn’t expect Him to work through my strength but His.  Then ask, and ask more, and keep asking.  As the verse says, “ask and you will receive”.  Daniel prayed to the Lord and fasted, 21 days later an answer returned.  When have I ever been so focused upon an answer?

So I ask you, have we been wrong all along?  Have we been relying upon ourselves rather than waiting upon the Lord?  Do we pray just enough to get a fuzzy feeling, then go off doing it for ourselves, rather than waiting upon the perfect will of God, upon His word to come to us.  Like I mentioned last time, we’re afraid He won’t answer, so we latch on to whatever we can get, call that God, and try to soothe our conscious that we are in His will.

So after listening to Sadhu, a couple new things hit me. First was some of the results he gave from waiting on the Lord. He took that scripture and broke it into the 4 things that happen from waiting on the Lord

1. They will renew their strength

2. They will mount up on wings like eagles

3. They will run and not grow weary

4. They will walk and not grow faint

Then he gave his own life experiences for each of these points. He spoke about how he gets up crazy early to spend time in prayer. We’re not talking like 5am, we’re talking 3am. I kept wondering how in the world he would function, but he pointed out that the Bible mentions that Jesus would sometimes do it as well. So it’s energized me to get up earlier again. So the last few days I’ve gone to bed at a normal time, but then gotten up early. I’ve actually probably averaged about 5 hours of sleep a night. Typically I’m a 6-hour guy. I can go off a 5 for a little bit. I’m waiting to see what happens, but so far it’s been really odd, I’ve felt more awake. I don’t think it hit me until afterward, but I believe I’m seeing some of the above. I think the extra time spent waiting on God is giving me energy, making me not grow weary. It hasn’t been long enough, so I’m actually not even going to finish this post right now, but hold onto it a couple days to see if it continues, but it’s been pretty odd for me, enough that I am noticing.

Day 3 – got a little rougher today. I left work feeling like I’m going to fall asleep on the way home. But I made it.

Day 4 – Little better today.  Wasn’t falling asleep in car, exhausted at end of day(it’s past 12 now), but had energy for the day, and less than 6 hours last night(closer to 5)

Day 5/6 – Little trouble making it up, but still made it up.  Plenty of energy for the day, exhausted by 11pm, but that’s to be expected.

Day 7(or was it 8) – Saturday(Today), took a chance to sleep in.  Still got up in enough time to get in around 30 minutes of waiting, and another 30 minutes of quiet time.

I want to push this up.  I’ll start moving it forward farther ( already get up by 5:30-5:40 usually ), I’d like to get close to 5, because I want some time to worship for a while, then meditate on the word, then waiting.  Morning is my time.  I think I’ll just have to deal with that and trust in the Lord to renew my strength.

Thanks to a previous comment, I now have something amazing.  Youtube videos of Sadhu Sundar Selvaraj.  I’ve heard his named mentioned by a couple other men of God that I listen to, and only had a small message or two of his, but here is a series of four messages of him talking exlusively about Waiting on God and Walking with God.  The same thing that I am desiring so badly.  Initially this just drove home the similarities between what he is preaching and what Neville has.  They come from different angles, but seem to have the same core truths.  Here’s the list that Sadhu gave of the five things to do to reach this.

1. Learn how to build fellowship with God(Sadhu) – Sounds like practicing His presence(Neville)

2. Learn how to properly meditate on the Word of God(Sadhu) – Revelation transforms our mind(Neville)

3. Learn the art of waiting on God(Sadhu) – Waiting on God, visualizing him(Neville)

4. Live a life of holiness(Sadhu) – Same basic message of holiness(Neville)

5. Live a life of obedience(Sadhu) – Bond-servant(Neville)

The only big difference I really saw was that Neville focused more on the visual piece of this.  For Him it was the waiting on God and picturing Him.  For Sadhu the focus was more on clearing your mind of everything and becoming completely still.  My main concern here is that when I become still, I don’t seem to have that love that I get by trying to focus my vision and feelings on the Lord.  Perhaps I should be visualize more during the day, thinking on him, focusing my love on Him, but then getting still and just waiting for Him.

So, having said this, the videos below are a must watch.  I went through them all in about 3 days, and it was just so much info, I’m having to go through them again.  He’s such a good speaker and he has sooo much to say.  It’s amazing the stories and how real he is.  It’ll stir you up.  Can’t think of much else to say.

Watch the video here